" A Song in the Night"
For my son, Kevin Russell Green
By Angie Green, January 2002
Where are you my child?
Are you still near me somehow?
Do you know how much I miss you?
And, how empty our house is now?
I wasn't ready to say "goodbye."
Your warming fire is gone.
And, all I can do for now is cry a mother's cry
Now, you are perfect
Full of Heaven's radiant light
In that place where it's always day
And, there's no need for sleeping or for night.
I am weeping, I imagine you laughing.
I am crippled with pain, I imagine you walking and running on streets of gold.
I am numb, I imagine you fully alive.
I am in despair, I imagine you experiencing perfect peace.
My heart is broken
My soul is weary and worn.
How will I survive this grief and pain
Without losing hope or wishing I was never born?
Suffering is defining my life
As nothing else has ever done.
But, it is my sole intention to thank God always
For you, my beautiful son.
Though the pain of loss is unbearable
The true tragedy I know would be
That you would have not been born at all
A much greater disappointment in the end
For a mother like me.
"How Many Tears?"
For Erica Leanne Forney
By Shelley Forney, February 21, 2014
How many tears will I shed today?
How many will you know about there in Heaven?
Do you know anything of how much I cry for you?
Do you know how often I share my tears with others in your memory?
I cry daily, maybe not outwardly, but my heart cries for you everyday.
I wonder, do the tears I shed matter or make a difference?
Do they stitch up the brokenness I feel inside, since you have been gone?
Do they mend the bleeding heart I have and live with everyday?
Some days, the tears flow like an unstoppable raging river and I think I haven’t any more tears to cry.
But, no matter how much I cry, there are always more tears.
My tears are a connection to the love that I have for you, which is never ending.
For you are my child, and you are a part of me.
I share my tears with others openly wihtout hesitation or apology
I believe my tears honor the life we shared together and they are a sign of my never-ending love for you
And, my tears are evidence of my heart opening to my love and remembrance of you with the world.
I accept my tears as a gift from God
I will always remember you and I accept the tears God has given me as a gift
As I also accept His gift of YOU, my daughter, my "sunshine."
"When we cry we're letting go of the pain from our heart, soul and bodies. Tears are God’s gift to us, a way to release the pain trapped inside. May we appreciate and let our tears flow, as we embrace our sorrow, that our tears be a part of God's way of grieving and healing." -S. Forney
"The Cord" - Unknown
We are connected my child and I
By an invisible cord, not seen by the eye
It's not like the cord that connected us until birth
This cord can't bee seen by anyone on earth
This cord does its work right from the start
It binds us together attached by my heart
I know that it's there, through no one can see
The invisible cord from my child to me
The strength of this cord is hard to describe
It can't be destroyed, it's can't be denied
It's stronger than any cord man can create
It withstands the tests, can hold any weight
Though you are gone, not here with me
The cord is still there, but no one can see
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised, I am sore
But this cord is my lifeline as never before
I am thankful that God connects us this way
A parent and child, death can't take this away!
"You Took My Son Today"
By Tina Cartwright, for her son, Mel
Februrary 25, 2010 - Sorting out the pain and truth with the Lord
You took my son today, Lord, and I know that he's with You.
For I could not live another day, if I doubted this were true.
The pain would be unbearable, the tears would never stop.
Yet, in the midst of all the pain, it's to my knees I drop.
For there is no other answer in this world for me today.
And, no comfort can be found, in the words that others say
The only comfort I can find is in the words You say,
And, I heard them very clearly, "He must go and you must stay."
But, Lord, I want to question, are you sure that this must be?
Then I hear Your calming answer, "Yes, I want him back with me,"
So even though I tremble and I may not understand,
I know my son is safe now, for he's holdint to Your hand
And, now I pray that others see there is no other way,
For You took away the fear of death, when You gave Your Son that day"
For my son, Kevin Russell Green
By Angie Green, January 2002
Where are you my child?
Are you still near me somehow?
Do you know how much I miss you?
And, how empty our house is now?
I wasn't ready to say "goodbye."
Your warming fire is gone.
And, all I can do for now is cry a mother's cry
Now, you are perfect
Full of Heaven's radiant light
In that place where it's always day
And, there's no need for sleeping or for night.
I am weeping, I imagine you laughing.
I am crippled with pain, I imagine you walking and running on streets of gold.
I am numb, I imagine you fully alive.
I am in despair, I imagine you experiencing perfect peace.
My heart is broken
My soul is weary and worn.
How will I survive this grief and pain
Without losing hope or wishing I was never born?
Suffering is defining my life
As nothing else has ever done.
But, it is my sole intention to thank God always
For you, my beautiful son.
Though the pain of loss is unbearable
The true tragedy I know would be
That you would have not been born at all
A much greater disappointment in the end
For a mother like me.
"How Many Tears?"
For Erica Leanne Forney
By Shelley Forney, February 21, 2014
How many tears will I shed today?
How many will you know about there in Heaven?
Do you know anything of how much I cry for you?
Do you know how often I share my tears with others in your memory?
I cry daily, maybe not outwardly, but my heart cries for you everyday.
I wonder, do the tears I shed matter or make a difference?
Do they stitch up the brokenness I feel inside, since you have been gone?
Do they mend the bleeding heart I have and live with everyday?
Some days, the tears flow like an unstoppable raging river and I think I haven’t any more tears to cry.
But, no matter how much I cry, there are always more tears.
My tears are a connection to the love that I have for you, which is never ending.
For you are my child, and you are a part of me.
I share my tears with others openly wihtout hesitation or apology
I believe my tears honor the life we shared together and they are a sign of my never-ending love for you
And, my tears are evidence of my heart opening to my love and remembrance of you with the world.
I accept my tears as a gift from God
I will always remember you and I accept the tears God has given me as a gift
As I also accept His gift of YOU, my daughter, my "sunshine."
"When we cry we're letting go of the pain from our heart, soul and bodies. Tears are God’s gift to us, a way to release the pain trapped inside. May we appreciate and let our tears flow, as we embrace our sorrow, that our tears be a part of God's way of grieving and healing." -S. Forney
"The Cord" - Unknown
We are connected my child and I
By an invisible cord, not seen by the eye
It's not like the cord that connected us until birth
This cord can't bee seen by anyone on earth
This cord does its work right from the start
It binds us together attached by my heart
I know that it's there, through no one can see
The invisible cord from my child to me
The strength of this cord is hard to describe
It can't be destroyed, it's can't be denied
It's stronger than any cord man can create
It withstands the tests, can hold any weight
Though you are gone, not here with me
The cord is still there, but no one can see
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised, I am sore
But this cord is my lifeline as never before
I am thankful that God connects us this way
A parent and child, death can't take this away!
"You Took My Son Today"
By Tina Cartwright, for her son, Mel
Februrary 25, 2010 - Sorting out the pain and truth with the Lord
You took my son today, Lord, and I know that he's with You.
For I could not live another day, if I doubted this were true.
The pain would be unbearable, the tears would never stop.
Yet, in the midst of all the pain, it's to my knees I drop.
For there is no other answer in this world for me today.
And, no comfort can be found, in the words that others say
The only comfort I can find is in the words You say,
And, I heard them very clearly, "He must go and you must stay."
But, Lord, I want to question, are you sure that this must be?
Then I hear Your calming answer, "Yes, I want him back with me,"
So even though I tremble and I may not understand,
I know my son is safe now, for he's holdint to Your hand
And, now I pray that others see there is no other way,
For You took away the fear of death, when You gave Your Son that day"
