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"How Many Tears?"

2/25/2014

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For Erica Leanne Forney
Written By Erica's Mom, Shelley Forney

Fort Collins, Colorado

How many tears will I shed today?  
How many will you know about there in Heaven? 
Do you know anything of how much I cry for you? 
Do you know how often I share my tears with others in your memory?  

I cry daily, maybe not outwardly, but my heart cries for you everyday.  
I wonder, do the tears I shed matter or make a difference? 
Do they stitch up the brokenness I feel inside, since you have been gone?
Do they mend the bleeding heart I have and live with everyday?

Some days, the tears flow like an unstoppable raging river and I think I haven’t any more tears to cry. 
But, no matter how much I cry, there are always more tears. 
My tears are a connection to the love that I have for you, which is never ending.  
For you are my child, and you are a part of me.

I share my tears with others openly with no hesitation or apology
I believe my tears honor the life we shared together and they are a sign of my never-ending love for you
My rears are evidence of my heart opening to my love and remembrance of you with the world. 
I accept my tears as a gift from God

I will always remember you and I accept the tears God has given me as a gift
As I also accept His gift of YOU, my daughter, my "sunshine."

"When we cry we're letting go of the pain from our heart, soul and bodies. Tears are God’s gift to us, a way to release the pain trapped inside. May we appreciate and let our tears flow, as we embrace our sorrow, that our tears be a part of God's way of grieving and healing." -S. Forney



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"For Better, For Worse"

2/18/2014

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"Grieving is not always done as a team." -Harriet Sarnoff Schiff

There are many losses that a married couple will experience during their life together, but nothing challenges and tests a marriage like experiencing the loss of a child.  

The heartbreak and demands of grieving the loss of a child are so great that a couple may become like strangers to one another or they may find that the bond of grief they share strengthens their love and relationship in unexpected ways.

Because people are different, we know that we all grieve differently, and that our response to and solutions for how we will cope, survive and heal will be different, too.


At the beginning of our grieving in response to the loss of our son, Kevin, January 2002, my husband, Bob, and I experienced a very special tenderness, compassion, closeness and understanding for one another, giving one another permission to grieve as individuals and as Kevin's parents. However, as the days, weeks, months and years past, we both sensed that we were drifiting apart, because we were both changed by our grief and in changing, we were struggling to stay connected to one another as we searched for our "new normal."

Our troubled times were typically the result of  misunderstandings, unspoken expectations of one another and we soon found ourselves simply out of touch with one another. 
Though neither of us realized, at the time, what was happening to us, we both knew we were in trouble and that we may not make it as a couple.

During the most difficult times, there was quite a bit of yelling, crying and throwing things (mostly by me), but most of all, 
a deafening silence permeated our lives together, as we stopped talking about our feelings, thoughts and emotions. Without us knowing it, we were adding to our grief connected to Kevin by piling on the grief of past hurts and disappointments, and neither one of us was fighting fair.

Thankfully, with God's help, we began to understand that the strain on our marriage was primarily because of the grief that we were experiencing in response to the loss of our son. In Thomas G. Crouthamed's book "When The Unthinkable Happens" he suggests that "No matter what the cost in time, effort or money, it is worth everything to try to save a marriage that is being torn aport because of grief."  It took time, money (for counseling) and careful attention to one another for us to realize that these words were certainly true for us.


Though we both know that we can survive alone, we would rather be together, because we are better living side-by-side. If we had given up on one another, not only would we have dishonored our son, Kevin, because he would not want his death to be the cause of us ending our marriage, but we would hvae further hurt and fractured our family in the process. 


We stayed together through the "worse" and, we have learned some very important truths about God's plan for marriage . . . surely it is God's intention in establishing the sanctity and sacredness of marriage that we might relfect His sacrificial love for us, as He layed down His only Son's life that we might live and love eternally. We'll take that kind of love anytime over the world's idea of "happily-ever-after" for better or for worse.

It's Worth It!
Angie and Bob Green

"But now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love." I Corinthians 13:13



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