For Erica Leanne Forney
Written By Erica's Mom, Shelley Forney
Fort Collins, Colorado
How many tears will I shed today?
How many will you know about there in Heaven?
Do you know anything of how much I cry for you?
Do you know how often I share my tears with others in your memory?
I cry daily, maybe not outwardly, but my heart cries for you everyday.
I wonder, do the tears I shed matter or make a difference?
Do they stitch up the brokenness I feel inside, since you have been gone?
Do they mend the bleeding heart I have and live with everyday?
Some days, the tears flow like an unstoppable raging river and I think I haven’t any more tears to cry.
But, no matter how much I cry, there are always more tears.
My tears are a connection to the love that I have for you, which is never ending.
For you are my child, and you are a part of me.
I share my tears with others openly with no hesitation or apology
I believe my tears honor the life we shared together and they are a sign of my never-ending love for you
My rears are evidence of my heart opening to my love and remembrance of you with the world.
I accept my tears as a gift from God
I will always remember you and I accept the tears God has given me as a gift
As I also accept His gift of YOU, my daughter, my "sunshine."
"When we cry we're letting go of the pain from our heart, soul and bodies. Tears are God’s gift to us, a way to release the pain trapped inside. May we appreciate and let our tears flow, as we embrace our sorrow, that our tears be a part of God's way of grieving and healing." -S. Forney