How I long for order and simplicity in this season of my life, and when I look at how I have organized and decorated my home, I would so like a complete remodel to match the "remodel" that is taking place inside of me.
The changes in me are many, I am being renewed and restored and my primrary goal is to continue to unclutter and rest and enjoy God's calming peace.
How thankful I am that I responded favorably to the Lord's call on my heart so many years ago, when I cried out to Him for His help in my deepest times of trouble, longing for "order in my inner world" . . . "if you will only let me help you, if you will only obey" and I obeyed, and there is much for which to praise Him now.
My home and life is less cluttered and I have learned so much about the value in establishing healthy boundaries and giving myself permission to choose carefully the people and activities with whom I invest and give of my time and attention. God is truly "ordering my inner world" and knowing me, who would have imagined that one day I would be a more "contemplative" personality?
Last week, I told my husband, Bob, that I don't know exactly how it happened, but that I am a very different person and living a very different life than I imagined, and as God continues to "order my inner world," my life truly has more significance in ways that only He could bring about.
For the past few weeks I have participated in a Tai Chi class at our fitness center. The movements are foreign to me, very "fluid" and I realized immediately that I know very little about "fluidity," but I am going to learn. I bought the right pants with bell bottoms that sit below the ankle so that I cannot see my legs,which are distracting in creating a fluid line. In Tai Chi, the body must be upright, but relaxed and the movements,though unfamiliar, are already feeling natural somehow. With time and practice, I am confident that like the more experienced participants, I will learn to move together with them in rythmatic fluidity and my dancer's heart and soul is looking forward to that time.
Looking up the definition of the word fluidity I found . . . "that which tends to flow and take the shape of its container; being smooth and easy." When I look back, I know that there were many years when I neither flowed or took the shape of my "container" - my heart, soul, mind and body weren't exactly connected, but when I asked God to "help me" be more connected to Him and to myself and others, He set me on a path of fluidity for which I am most grateful and pleased.
With each day, week, month and year that passes, I can see how He has uncluttered me. I am yielded and still, surrendered and relaxing into the plans that He has for me "plans to prosper . . . to give me hope and a future" - Jer. 29:11. It's amazing what God can do, when we open ourselves to Him completely.
"To God be the Glory for the things He has done!"
On a path of "fluidity,"