I've been through some wicked awful days in my life where it's been difficult to enjoy anything good, and that brutal day, when I suffered the loss of our son, sometimes runs through my memories like a bad movie.
When I think of misery, I have an image of falling over in intense pain, holding my head in my hands and sobbing - completely overwhelmed.
For moms like me, it is not difficult to understand my memory of that "miserable day," but others might say "it's just one day, surely you will get over it!"
To grieving moms I ask, "Is that likely to happen?" and we would all agree, "It's not likely," but possible.
Though the memories of that brutal and miserable day may fade, and those memories coming to our minds become less frequent, they are still held in our mind and no amount of time can change this reality.
As I recall those memories now that my broken heart is healing and the intense pain has subsided, I have to say that day is not the most "miserable day to end all miserable days." In truth, the most "miserable" day to end all miserable days" is the day that Jesus was crucified, and He forever bears the scars of His suffering and pain that far outweigh any misery I have or could ever experience. All sin, sorrow, suffering, misery and brutality was placed upon Him for our sake, that we might be forgiven, saved, redeemed and given the free gift of Eternal Life.
Because of His misery, and what He accomplished for our sake, my personal most miserable day takes me to the Cross where Jesus, "a man of sorrow, acquainted with grief" gave His life that all who receive Him, as the Redeeming King, might live eternally.
Our son, Kevin, accepted this truth when he was a young boy, and whenever memories come of the "miserable and brutal" day when he left us, I think of him being resurrected, like Jesus, from death to life in an instant, and I lay down my memories at the Cross with gratitude for what Jesus has done!
May this be a blessed Easter for everyone. -John 3:16
With Faith, Hope and Love in Christ,
Angie "a mom like you"