While internet searching cities on the western coast, pictures of Coeur d’Alene filled my screen. I had never heard of this town, but my body was filled with an incredible feeling, from my head to my toes. I knew I was supposed to go there, so I went on a road trip with my “other” child, my 50 pound husky/retriever.
We traveled thru Montana, which I had never seen. It was beautiful! I reached northern Idaho and when I drove into Coeur d’Alene, my body was filled with the same amazing feeling! I stayed a couple of days and found the community to be very welcoming and beautiful. I felt sure that God wanted me to live here, and it filled me with incredible peace.
A couple of months later, an apartment became available that allowed my dog, and without even seeing it, I quit a job I truly enjoyed and got rid of most of my belongings. It forced me to simplify my life in a few weeks and go through everything I owned; a task I had avoided for years. I moved out of Colorado, feeling strangely calm about leaving the place I had lived for such a long time. I could almost hear my daughter, Tara, cheering me on like she had in the past, “You Go Girl!” It felt like I was beginning a great adventure, and following God’s direction.
I didn’t know anyone in Coeur d’Alene when I arrived last November, but quickly became involved in Christian groups, adventure groups, and volunteering. I found a job working at one of the colleges, and am also working on getting more education. Often, I am told I am brave, inspiring, and strong.
I am not sure of all that God has planned for me, but I know that I am supposed to be here right now. My faith has deepened, things are brighter, clearer, and I feel more alive. I am living in one of God’s masterpieces, enjoying the lakes, rivers, mountains, forests, and wonderful people every single day!
I realized I was just going through the motions before, numb from the loss of a child, among other things. Children are not really our's, but a gift from God, to raise while we have them. What a blessing to have the precious memories and love that we share!
May God bless each one of you and lead you on the path that He desires for you.
Beth Dailey "a mom like you"