I have been "dancing with a limp," since the loss of my youngest son, Kevin, in 2002, but dance I have and the limp definitely "adds to the depth of my life's performance."
As my family and I approach the 15th year, since the loss of our son, Kevin, I am taking stock of where I am in my journey since the time, when time stood still for me. Much has happened over the past 15 years, all without our youngest son- - -
my husband and I were nearly divorced, we retired, we relocated (with our son, David, and his family and my mom) to No. Colorado, we've attended and been a part of several weddings, witnessed divorces, celebrated anniversaries, births of grandchildren and a great-grandchild, faced physical health challenges, experienced family and friends' deaths, dealt with heartache, had fun, laughed a lot, had some disappointments and we've grown and matured and gotten 15 years older, too. There has been a lot of life lived over the past 15 years, but there's not a day that goes by or a memory made that we don't notice the one who is missing.
I cannot say that I will ever get used to living without our son, Kevin. Our life is very different from what it was before his death - and without hesitation I can say that God has used his death and 'homegoing" for our good and His Word is true when He tells us that "all things work together for good for those love Him and are called according to His purpose."
This year, as we approach Kevin's earthly birthday on December 8th, I am hoping that the dreaded sense of the loss of our son will not over-shadow the enhanced sense of peace that we are all experiencing, as we continue to allow Kevin to be where he is, as we live on without him. I pray that each and everyday of my life that I will honor my Heavenly Father and my son by holding onto the faith that has strengthened and sustained me through the years, and I am intentional about proclaiming the goodness of God and the truth that we are all sojourners just passing through to our eternal home with the assurance that our "solid home is in Christ." -Lana Gray
And, how are you doing, as you continue to live with the loss of someone you love? What is your hope built upon? Where is your "solid home?" Are you experuencing peace? I would so like to hear from other 'moms like me' so that I can share something of your journey through grief and all that you are learning about yourself, about loss and how best to respond to your loss. I would like to put together a special blog post for the A Mother Like Me website with several of your thoughts and reflections, so please consider emailing them to me at firstname.lastname@example.org before the end of this month.
With Faith, Hope and Love Always,
Angie "a mom like you"