Since the loss of my son, Kevin, my anticipations and expectations about holidays and special days have changed.
Mother's Day "past" and Mother's Day "present" are very different, as I reflect on memories that I cherish of the blessings of being a mother and a grandmother and how we, as a family, celebrate this day set aside to honor "MOMS."
Some of my most cherished memories of Mother's Day celebrations are of when I was a young mom with my three sons at home; hand-made cards and notes, 3 flowers in a vase signifying my three sons, burnt pancakes prepared by my husband and boys, dancing with my boys in our family room, picnics, brunches, BBQ's with my grandmother, mother, aunts, uncles and cousins - those large family gatherings, when all of our children were young and under-foot and our precious grandmother was at the heart and center of our extended family.
Since Kevin's death, and our relocation to Colorado from California, Mother's Day has changed. Though the love that we share as a family has not changed, most of our traditions and celebrations have changed quite a bit. As is the case concerning my journey of grief, I know that, if I am going to live a happy, peace-filled life, I must accept my "new normal" and embrace the changes, as part of God's master plan for good. -Jeremiah 29:11
Though I cherish the past, I constantly remind myself to live in the here and now, focusing on what I have rather than what I don't have. My children and grandchildren love me, and I love them, and it doesn't take a Mother's Day for our love for another to be expressed. As a family who has suffered the loss of someone we all loved so much, we all realize that it is important to show our love for one another each and everyday - taking no one for granted.
Kevin's death has shaped and changed me (and our family) and something very precious came from the "ashes" . . .
a life-changing realization that we should not wait for special days to show those we love that we love them, because
today is all that we have, and it has been our experience that "nothing lasts forever, nothing stays the same."
It is my hope and prayer that other "moms like me" experienced a measure of God's love on Mother's Day, and that you are also experiencing something of the peace and contentment that comes from living one day at a time in Christ.
With Faith, Hope and Love,
Angie "a mom like you"